this has to be at least the 5th or 6th day where i got around 5 hrs. of sleep if i'm lucky.

well- i didn't get much sleep AGAIN.. my cpap still isn't working. i probably got around 4 or 5 hours of sleep. i lost track of the days and i was thinking it was saturday or sunday.. until i walked by my calendar and seen that my care coordinator was coming to meet with me in my apartment for an annual check-up or somethin like that. i ate and brushed my teeth, then sat on my couch and waited for him to come. he came and we talked with each other in my living room. he asked me how things were going and he looked at my health alert, since that hasn't been working for at least 3 weeks i'd say. he determined that the battery in the pendant was dead- so fredrick and i are gonna go get a new battery in a little while. then he asked me what about my physical health, i should've figured someone who is on my "care" team would bring this up when they seen me. i'm not too outta shape (in my opinion) but people will always try to urge a person who used to be going to rehab. and isn't anymore to go back to rehabilitation, so it looks like they're doing their jobs. the fact that i'm volunteering probably eases their minds a little- so i'm at least doing something constructive and i don't have time to get in trouble. i don't have time for people's ideas of wasting my time acting like i'm helping myself get physically fit when they don't do SHIT for me because i lack ADVOCACY to jerk them off and make them actually appear "HELPFUL" (which they by NO MEANS are if you don't have the proper advocacy- i've been on both sides of support systems- ACTUALLY having advocacy (but my grandma was naive, so i think that helped reel them in) and LACKING advocacy (right now when my grandma is dead and most people are too busy to care about me). IF YOU HAVE ANY SIGN OF INTELLIGENCE- YOU SHOULD REALIZE THAT I DON'T HAVE THE PROPER RESOURCES OF SUPPORT IN THIS STATE- SO I'M GOING SOMEWHERE THERE'S ACTUALLY RESOURCES FOR ALL DISABLED PEOPLE (and people in general). taxes may be high there but they're definitely not higher than minnesota's and you ACTUALLY get what you pay for in massachusetts, judging by how people treat each other and the CLEANLINESS and ACCESSIBILITY of the ENVIRONMENT there. minnesota just steals money from taxes and rewards the rich dicks.